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Thanks Bianca Ghez, I didn't want to study anyways...
Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits
about yourself. In the end you need to choose people to be tagged and list their names.
No tag backs!!
1] I need to brush my teeth before I do anything in the day. Even eat.
2] I'm pretty sure I fart in my sleep. Thats probably why no guy will keep me.
3] I think about sex at all times of the day. I was probably a dude in a past life because I love it so much.
4] I don't think anyone will ever marry me. So I see my life right now as the beginnging of the end.
5] I want to meet Oprah seriously before I die. Or atleast go see her show.
6] I don't know if I want to be religious anymore.
I'm tagging:
AMANDAMILLS<3
My brother Dustin.
Cait...my long lost State friend!
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| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
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| Dear Secret Santa... |
[10 Nov 2005|02:18pm] |
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I want for Christmas:
* Real CD of: Motion City Soundtrack – Commit this to Memory, Frou Frou CD - Details, Jem CD – Finally Woken, Cursive CD– The Ugly Organ
* Band hoodies/tshirts...you know we all like the same music
* a small water bong or cool piece w/ screens
* a cupholder ashtray for my car
* a sweet huge ashtray for the apartment
* Some fancy lubricant (don't hate..lol,) it doesn't matter, just something that will be sweet to use.
* Picture frames w/ us in them/posters/things to hang on my wall
* Food/gas/grocery gift certificates
* Anything you think I would like I will probably love!
...And for my birthday I want:
* Everyone I love to death to come to Kzoo on December 9th and get really drunk and dance w/ me in my apartment and celebrate my birthday.
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| And what have I got to lose When your not worth fighting for... |
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A&E is my new favorite channel. Its even got MTV beat... and everyone knows how I was a sponge for any second of that channel I could absorb up when I wasn't at home. Seeing as how my parents blocked MTV when I was in middleschool because they thought it was a bad influence on me. Weird...I didn't even think about MTV when I smoked my first joint or cigarrette or when I got real drunk..wait maybe when I had sex the first time...nope I take that back, I was thinking about people coming downstairs..hahah. I don't even use my remote anymore, because I don't wanna watch anything else.
I had the BEST weekend in a looooooong time. It was so good to see so many familiar best favorite faces. And for once we all went out every night. Thursday thru Saturday was just pure drunkeness. Thursday I was 80's and we went to Jakes. And this black guy broke the chair we were sitting on. It was pretty funny seeing him fall. Then Friday was when everyone came!! I was a sexy drag racer. Apparently my boobs being out was shocking? I don't see how they were any different then any other night..lol. And we went to Jakes again. That night was so random and crazy. Saturday I had work, which sucked a ton, to hungover to function. Then later that night I was a hippie and I loved acid. We went to a free jello shots party that this guy from my work had. I think those jello shots were made just for us, cuz we def. made a big dent in them. The cops ended up coming and Saif came to pick up James and Reid sooo I just hopped in w/ him for a sec. then went to Dereks house, then back to my place. OMG...BEST NIGHT... We were all way drunk and stoned and just danced and sang and it was perfection! Jamie and I finally got to sing Panic at the Disco, we've been waiting for too long to do that. I don't think I could've had a better weekend. I am in love w/ my friends, there is nothing or no one better then them. :] :]
This week has been kinda hell. It figures all my teachers would give me a ton of shit to do, just because of the weekend. I had a test, 2 huge papers to write and 2 pop quizzes...wtf! But thank God its over. I'm really starting to like the people I work with..which is so relieving. I still miss that boy more then I should. It really pisses me off that this whole heartbroken process is healing faster. I'll be home soon, which will be good and bad. Living back home w/ the fam. is so stressful but it'll be nice to not have to pay for every aspect of my life for that month. eh TV's on and we're leaving soon to go and help Meg move out of her house and in w/ MAN!!! This coming weekend will be a good vacation from this week.
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| I'm the selfish little whore If I had my way I'd crush your face in the door |
[24 Oct 2005|05:33pm] |
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Well I've skipped class again. Its hard to go to all 3 of my classes on Mondays. I have long breaks in between all of them, and I just don't want to be on campus for that long doing nothing. And with every road in kzoo being tore up, its impossible to get anywhere in decent time. I do have to meet with my drug class teacher about my failed mid-term, and his office is right next to the State Psychiatric hospital...should be fun. I really hope I didn't legitimatly fail it, I'm hoping I marked the wrong test or mixed up the numbers, because for the first time in my life I studied my ass off for that test, so it wouldn't result in a 56 out of 100.
I really love Frou Frou. I forgot how amazing the music is. Its weird how things change and so fast. How I picked one person to be allowed into my life, even though he was the last person in the world I wanted close to me. But it seemed worth it, only for it to end with him pushing me out of his. No more going home and counting on him to entertain me. I've gone home the past two weekends. I didn't really want to do that, just because I don't at all want to get into the habit of liking to go home. But kzoo always makes me love it when I come back. The weekend before it was just me and my mom and that was heavenly. We went shopping lots, and spent a ton of time together. Birr had people over and that was way fun. I enjoy his company and his new lady friends. I was in a crap mood though last week. Sometimes I just hate life, for no reason. and then usually I blame it on a bun in the oven or some dumb reason. But I cried it out and I feel fine. Thank God for that. Then this past weekend was my moms birthday and I wanted to make it extremly special for her because she deserves it. So I got her a sweatshirt, CD, balloons and 2 dozen roses. She was way surprised and loved all of it. She cried at my card and the guys (which I picked out too) so that was a success. It makes you feel the best when you've given the cry card and since I picked out all 3...I won at life. We went out to eat and she got new shoes. I really think she had a good day and it made me feel good that I could give that to her.
Hung out w/ Birr a ton over the weekend. Friday night it was Birr, Hill and Bianca and I. We went to the Vous and smoked. I didnt pay for my crinky fries. They were $2 for only about 4 fries..so I peaced out on that. Then Saturday I ran errands for the big day. And then hung out w/ Birr and those girls. Jamie and I almost hit 2 deer on the way back to Kzoo last night. It really throws you for a loop. I just appreciated my life about 8 times more after almost losing it. My car reeked of burnt rubber for just about the rest of the way home. Went line dancing last week w/ people from work here in Kzoo. It was alright, you either have to have some kind of male buddy or boyfriend or you have to be real drunk to really enjoy that kind of thing. And I was neither, so it was a decent time. I'm getting that 21 yr old itch. Like the one you get when you're 15 and all you can think about is how much better your life will be when youre 16 and have your license. I think my life will be slightly improved when I'm 21. I had 2 nights in a row, when I was very much of aware of my baby age. And if only I was 21, I could've had a way better time.
eh I don't think I'm going to meet w/ my teacher. I'll save it for Wednesday when I might have more motivation. And I prob. won't go to my night class tonight. Sprint sucks just for the record. I was on the phone w/ them, well I mean on hold, for just about an hour off and on on Saturday. There are people in America, who don't have jobs... put them in an office and have them answer phones. I get so pissed off when I get an automated voice system. Well I think I'm gonna watch some tv or lay down.
Who's coming to Kzoo this weekend??? I want everyone in the world to come.
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Dustina...geeeeeze.
I'll do this b/c I'm way bored and have a ton of studying that I don't want to do and I love livejournal....lol
Reveal 5 songs that you have been enjoying lately, regardless of genre,
1. Panic! At the Disco - The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage
2. Kelly Clarkson - Because of You
3. Frou Frou - The Dumbing Down of Love
4. Coheed & Cambria - Welcome Home
5. Leona Naess - Ballerina
I tag...
the lady that shits in my bathroom too.
andreaKOZAL.
AMANDA MILLSSSS.
WEINER.
cathy...my 2nd floor Stinson lady lover.
going home this weekend again. mom's birthday. hang out w/ me fags.
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[28 Sep 2005|07:11pm] |
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College seems so busy to me. I feel like I am constantly doing something although I'm really not, it just seems hectic, and I know if I actually did all that I was supposed to here, I'd probably go insane. Well my sickness finally seems to be going away. Its still kinda sticking around, but I seriously feel about 2399230 times better then last week at this time. I went home for the weekend which I know helped a ton.
Friday I got out of work and made it home just in time for my doctors appointment. He said there was nothing he could give for my sinuses, but that from some of the symptons I had, I was stressed out and prob. grinding my teeth at night, so he gave me some muscle relaxers. Then I went home and showered and met Dustin at Pizza Hut to see Andrew Birr<3. Then us 3 came back to my house, then went over to Big Gs for a fire. OMG it was so nice seeing people I havent seen in forever. I ended up getting Devon and bringing him back to Big Gs. I think he talks to my friends more than I do, but I like it. Then me and Devon left and went up to Dereks and played Dominoes. I suck alot at them, but its still one of my favorites. Brought him home and then took those pills. Lord, I felt reallllly relaxed, but slept like shit, which was unexpected. Then I woke up with horrible dry mouth. Its all very similar to being high, I got all relaxed, and I liked it a little too much, but the cotton mouth all the next 2 days and not sleeping good at all, made it suck ass. So I won't ever take them again.
Saturday I woke up at like 1:30 and went and got food at G&L. I reallllly miss that place. I'm gay I know. But everyone smiles and gets happy when I stop in. I couldn't even taste it which sucked. Then I slept till like 7:30pm and I could've easily slept the entire night but I knew I had to get up and do something w/ my life. So I showered and Birr stopped by. We drove around alittle and stopped at Jareds to get my sweatshirt. Us 3 came back to my house for a little, then Jared left and Kathleen came over. Devon ended up calling and I went out to Dereks again. I realllly like all those guys. And Devons cousin/girlfriend were there and I like the girlfriend alot. They were all real drunk already by the time I got out there. Devon me and his cousin and girlfriend left and went back to Devons. I ended up sleeping over even though I was way congested and sick. But it was nice and like old times when he was actually sweet to me. I just know I'm lame and prob. shouldn't of, but atleast now I know what I'm getting myself into and it isn't ever gonna be a relationship. I woke up brought him to work and then went home and went back to bed. I just layed and slept alllllll day. Birr stopped over for a little and I did a paper.
My family came home at like 3am. I ended up having lunch w/ my mom and dad. And hung around town with her for most of the afternoon. Hutton really pisses me off and I wanted so badly to go over to West Shore and just punch him in the face, or atleast talk to him. But I didn't, I was just to scared and shaking and I knew I'd only studder or cry. I did talk to a couple of girls that work w/ my mom and all we did was cry. gooooosssssh. I hate it. Then I came back to Kzoo and unpacked and did some homework.
I finally got my refund check. So I went shopping yesterday..lol. I got the new Coheed which is amazing like everyone says. I wanted to cry when I heard it. I got some clothes. It was heaven sent. Last night I worked on homework, smoked w/ Saif and the girls. Erma went back into the hospital. I wish I wouldn't of smoked and studied more for my test today. Its a lesson learned I suppose..lol. Well now I need to clean like extremely bad and call my grandma and wish her a happy birthday seeing as how I was to stoned last night to do it...I'm such a horrible person...lol. Well cig break right now w/ Bianca then tv and cleaning. I'll be home in like 2 weeks prob. People need to come visit this weekend it'd be heavensent.
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wow being sick sucks. and i think it sucks even more being away from home and being sick. i'm so much of a baby when i'm sick that i need to be held and taken care of..lol. And since I'm on this new ADD meds, I can't take sudafed or anything w/ sudafed in it, so I'm battling this cold, cold turkey and its real rough. Well haven't updated in quite some time. Didn't really feel like it, and to much shit to even write about.
Well I'm back in Kzoo and I LOVE it more than anything. Sometimes I'll just be walking on campus and get a lil' choked up because I'm so frickin' happy..I know its lame...lol. And living in the apartment is 239820938 times better then living in the dorms. I dont regret the dorms, but its a one time experience and not worth doing it more than that. Seriously our balcony is the size of our dorm room last year. Its a beautiful thing. We're all getting adjusted to eachother. Its weird how your roomates kinda become your parents that you check in with. And every once in awhile one of us will take the "mother role" alittle too far, but we get through it and realize its not worth the battle. Our neighbors upstairs were pretty sweet. There is this one Saif who always has pot and is from Sri Lanka and always wants us to smoke w/ him. I dig it. I've become quite the betty homemaker around here. I've cooked more then I ever did at home and do dishes and laundry. Its weird to be on your own and you have to be responsible because NO ONE else will do it for you unless you do it yourself. Its a very maturing thing.
My classes are not too bad. So far not to much homework, just a lot of note taking and a few small papers. I've met a few people in my classes too that seem pretty sweet. I do somehow attract the homeless people that wander campus and they'll always end up asking me out or talking to me about religion (because they're all sent from Jesus to talk to me) its not the worst thing, but can get real creepster sometimes. I work in one of the cafeteria's on campus w/ Dustin and Meg. I REALLY like it. It sucked at first being the new guy and not knowing anyone, but each day it gets better and better. and Oh gosh I was talking to this guy today about all my fucked up guy situations and how I always get screwed over and how I didnt understand, and he was like,'It's because you're pretty.' and I was like,'me? no! I'm def. not,' and he was like, 'well believe me you are and you're cool and fun and have a cool personality, you're just picking the wrong guys!" I honestly think that was one of the nicest conversations I've ever had with someone. Granted he's a guy, and I really think guys mean not even half of what they say, but it was atleast nice to hear, even if it was just bullshit.
I do miss Muskegon a ton. Not so much my family, my dad def. not. because that went to shit right before I left. But my mom is struggling with work and some other things and I just want to be home and take care of her. But she keeps saying its best for me to be where I am and she'll be fine. Its just so hard that I can't be with her and comforting her. I just pray alot that she'll get through all of this and people will understand. But I'm pretty sure some people at my church can go FUCK THEMSELVES for making her feel the way she feels. And I just know that they'll get what they deserve in the end. I miss Birr a ton. He was one of the people that was ALWAYS there for me and we understood each other and genuinely cared about each other. But I'm working on maintaining that friendship no matter what. I plan on not getting wrapped up in another guy for a long time. It always ends in heartache, and I honestly can't take much more of it anymore. It ruins alot of things for me because I always put my whole heart into it and neglect other things that should be my priority, like friends family relationships. eh for now I'm just gonna focus on what really matters right now like school and my mom.
well I've got some laundry in, even though I just ran a whole bleach load and didn't add any damn bleach. I suck at this..lol. I'll prob. take a nap and watch Weeds, which is the best fuckin show omg omg! Then class tonight and sleeping some more. I'll be in Muskegon this weekend watching the house for the fam. They're all going racing in Ohio. I def. want to see a few of you and take it easy with my dogs.
*sorry so long*
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SUCKS I'm doing this but I think for now my journal is gonna be FRIENDS ONLY. I prob. won't update that much anymore anyways. But if its real important to keep reading this, then just comment or something and maybe I'll add you.
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| Once again the table's turned and i'm behind picking up the pieces from the night... |
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I hate being sick. Right now is the first time in 2 days that I've actually been able to sit at my computer for any longer than 2 minutes.
The past week really didnt consist of much. I went to mostly all my classes minus 2 and no joke thats a record for me! Tuesday me and Jame hung out. I totally blew my oral exam. haha that could be a POW. *lol We ate a weiner place and went to Target. then Wednesday I went to both my classes. Watched good tv. hung out w/ Court in her room. Thursday a few of us girls went to a party. It was fun and interesting. Then me and Reek went out to one of Daves friends party. It was so fun! Jamie and Tom came alittle later. The cops came, and he just walked in and was like "hey! where's the keg?" He was making conversation w/ people. I thought he was pretty cool except for the owner of the house might've went to jail that night but we're not sure. We drank what we could. Then we thought it'd be time to leave. Tom rode w/ me and he bought me Tacobell. We had a ton of good talks. Reek mastered the hyiena laugh! I skipped my morning class on Friday. I'm a dumbass. then...
Friday night the death hit me. I started to feel sick before we left for State but it kinda went away, then just before the show I was out. It was so sad to be there w/ all the the loves of my life (minus one) and being able to see Motion City and all I could think about was not throwing up or passing out. I did have fun I suppose. We got back to the dorms after the show and I just layed down. Soon we drew Secret Santa and we were off. I came back, layed under 4 blankets and didnt move off that futon till this morning. Reek sat w/ me for a second so I could cry. That made me feel better. I hate being sick more than anything.
Saturday consisted of futon. thats it. Jamie saved my life and went out and bought me Gatorade, Panera soup, and Ice Cream. That was seriously heaven sent. Then amazingly everyone wanted to hang out in this sick inferno. So pretty much all the guys and us girls hung out in here and watched movies, while I layed dead on the futon. Then I took a tylenolPM and slept so gooood last night. I woke up at 2pm today. hopefully I sleep tonight.
Today all I've done is watch Reek clean pretty much. Pack up my shat to go home. and watch TV. My computer is shitting real bad, so I need to get that looked at when I come home. I'll be home tomorrow night. And then I work practically everday after that. Everyone needs to come and visit me on Tuesday at G&L. I work 5-close!!! I want to see you kids that are leaving for Thanksgiving before you leave damnit :)
and Secret Santaers ---- Post atleast 3 things your want for Christmas!
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I am so sick of my body fighting life or making life or whatever in the hell its doing. I am always tired, or my body is hurting from not eating, but when I eat it hurts or dies. I dont know what to do. This past week was quite crazy. the only good that came out of it was hanging out w/ my cousins a ton and having her take me to Olive Garden. I love that place. I really cant handle her being so nice to me, I just dont know what to do. She gave me $20 for no reason, juice, took me out to eat, bought my mom flowers and chocolate. Pete and Kevin came down on Thursday. And I had a beer and went to bed. I wasnt much fun. Friday Pete and Kevin brought me to my car at my cousins and I was home free. I came home, went tanning, and layed down and slept. I slept through going to the Station. Then Abbey came over w/ her boyfriend and I got to meet him. He is a nice fella. Brian came over alittle later and we all hung out. Brian and I ended up having to go and get Bill from the teachers party. It was funny. Then me and Brian were off to Biancas. I went and made a huge run. I'm sure I forgot some peoples stuff. I just felt to overwhelmed. I dont think I wanna make runs for people anymore. They are all just to ungrateful and i always get ripped off and people get pissed at me. I smoked w/ some friends. Carted people around. Well I had nothing in my stomach so I got drunk way fast. and I became no fun. I was just too drunk to function. So I layed and Jamie rubbed my head for what seemed like hours. I barely saw Bianca, I made the cut in no pictures. I was a lame-O. I finally got up enough balls to drive home. Sorry to Bianca for all the shit that happend. I wish I wouldve been more functional to help out.
Saturday I got to sleep in. then woke up and baked a cake while the fam did yard work. then I slept. yah it was selfish, but i was hung over and i refuse to do yard work that doesnt need to be done. My mom gets compulsive about shit like that. then the fam wanted to go to Buffalo Wild Wings and I hate that place w/ a passion, but i thought i'd just go and sit w/ them. I had enough time for a pop. then I went and saw Napolean Dynamite w/ Josh Meg and Derek. I love that movie! Then we just went back to Megs and hung out. Birr and Matt Yonk came over. Matt made me fall when we were leaving. That son is getting an ass whoopin! Then I just came home. Sunday I just stayed home w/ the fam. Talked my dad outta going to church. Hung out w/ Bill all day. He bought me an Oil change, and a CD. Went and saw Alfie w/ my mom. it was decent. then I just came home and went to bed.
I got to finally see my english boyfriend today. I'm pretty sure that made my week. He is still just as cute as I remember. we walked from class together. he makes me smile! then I went over to Megs to hang out. I love her alot. I have a ton of pictures to post but since Photobucket likes to suck balls, I dont know how to post them. so maybe someother time. WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE besides drink beer, waste money, and sleep!? I need to decide fast.
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So my class starts in 10 minutes. what am I gonna do about that?.... prob take a nap or watch Oprah. I am so sick of going to class and now that its getting colder its such a bitch walking back and forth to class. Last week was a really long week. I felt like crap pretty much all week. Tuesday went home for the day w/ James and Nic. My family got really excited about that. Wednesday I skipped class and slept because I felt like complete shit. Woke up and talked to Devin. He came over and we watched a movie and talked. I think he is a really nice guy and we have alot in common. He bought me a fountain Mt. Dew so I'm pretty sure he is marriage material *lol. Thursday the kids came down from Muskegon. Didnt really do too much of anything besides hang out. I hope it wasnt too lame. I hit Nicole in the face w/ chicken. Skipped class on Friday. Luckily my teacher is cool w/ that and I'm not in trouble, I just cant skip anymore w/o a really good excuse. Bianca rode back w/ me. and there was about 95948504 accidents and we kept having to take detours. Had some good talks w/ her. pretty sure I'm still in love w/ her and think she is the best person in the world. Finally made it to Muskegon in like 3 hours. Came home and then went to the Station nothing new. Got some new shoes. Then went over to Ben Js. Cleaned up the most throw up I've ever seen in my life. Left there w/ Reece and went to Nicoles. Watched some OC. Layed in the road and looked at the stars. Nothing was really going on so me and Reece went back to Bens. I love that kid. Left there, went home and slept really well.
Saturday. Slept in. Did yard work. it sucked soOOo bad. Finally after like 4 hours we were done for the day. Oh god we brought back the leaves and as we were driving to the leaf dump the trailer came off of the truck and it flew all over the road and was sparking. and finally landed in the ditch. it was sweet. Got some food. Then went over to Jamies. Then went to Big Gs and hung out w/ him and Jared. Then Birr Kelly Meg and Josh came over. there wasnt much to do so we all just went to my house. I brought Big G and Jared home. it was a good night. Sunday just finished up yard work. I felt like shit all day. Drove myself back to school. Played Trivial Pursuit w/ Reek. God i love that game! Went to bed early. I went to class this morning. Then went and saw my cousins girlfriend at work. Then came back and watched OC w/ Reek. I'm finally starting to feel better. Oprah is damn good today. Time for a shower.
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| You don't recover from a night like this. A victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless... |
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quick update.
Thursday went home. Did nothing that night besides eat at G&L w/ the fam. I talked to Jeff for like 2 min. i miss him a lot. I think I might start back up there again. and just work every other weekend seeing as how I ran outta money already and I'm home a ton as is. Then went to Old Navy talked w/ Lvan and Andrea pretty much the whole time. It was like a class reunion. Got some new stuff. Then went home. Found out my appointment for Friday was cancelled. so coming was a waste! Friday went and brought Bill lunch. Got to see 2 of my favorite people. then went and ate lunch w/ my mom. we went and got some shat from Wal Mart. Got gas, then tanning, then home packed up my stuff. and didnt leave Muskegon till like 6:30pm. I left in tears and pissed off. It was just a waste to go home, and then I felt like I was rushed to get back, and everything seemed to not be working out and I just was pissed. Came back to the girls being super nice!! We got some Jimmy Johns and started to get ready! Took some pictures and headed to Marky Marks. It was sooOooo so so so so much fun!!! that jungle juice def. kicked my ass. I was piss drunk by like 11pm and i was loving it! Saw so many people. Met a ton of people. I love Megs' girlfriends. Kissed Jesus. Made out w/ a nice boy named Devin. Smoked alittle..drank alot more. Cops came and Meg was my life saver and called me a billion times to get to the car. If it wasnt for Devin I think I would've just kept drinking and having a good ol' time but he pulled me out of the party and took me to Megs car. Came back to the dorms w/ Grant and Josh. Pissed in the sink b/c Grant called bathroom first and I know I would've peed my pants if I waited due to last weekends drunk peeing my pants/in my driveway. then we just layed on the floor in the dark till Reek came back. Reek and I layed in the hallway in our underwear and called everyone we knew. I hope people could decode what we were saying because we had a lot of good things to say. went to bed feeling mighty shitty.
Woke up at like 7am w/ killer heartburn and a massive headache. Wanted to throw up real bad but a passed out kid was in my bathroom. So i pissed took tylenol and ate like a whole roll of Rolaids and went back to sleep. Woke up too early again at 10am to the boys singing. And all I wanted to do was take a nappy. So I sang the Nappy Song in hopes they'd go back to sleep. No luck so we ate Taco Bell. Watched Pops videos. Brought Harry Cait and Rachel back to MSU w/ Nickelback. We ended up staying the night. Just hung out in their dorm. Saw Laura, Corey and Brian!! Played Cranium and tried watching Napolean Dynamite but i fell a sleep because I'm lame. Talked to Reece for a bit in the potty. Then back to bed on a little twin size bed w/ nicole. I figured I wasnt going to sleep on the floor so if I were to endure hell so would she, so we slept on the same bed w/ eachother feet at our heads. Woke up this morning... got lost getting outta Lansing. took us 3 and 1/2 hours to get home. SoOOOOO pissed. We just screamed the entire way. We were almost to Detroit before we realized we were going the wrong way. Finally made it back to Western. all i wanna say about this experience is. i LOVE Western more than anything.
( Happy Halloween biatches )
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So my parents let me drive my car to school this week. I got a parking pass for the week and it is so beautiful! I love driving around Kzoo so much. So i got back this morning and just barely missed my class. I really hope that I dont regret skipping that class later. I know I wont get behind, or my grade will go down. I'm just not sure on the attendance policy for it, so I wonder if I keep missing it, if I'll get kicked out?! I should prob. read up on that more. My weekend was so good!! I'm getting sick of having to come home and deal w/ the family and having to balance my time between them and my friends. blah!
Friday was my moms surprise party. I got home from school and just ran some last minute errands. and then it was my job to get her to the Station. I think she was really surprised and super happy!! I'm really glad it went so well. My grandparents came, and so did alot of her friends which was so good. Well after everything was done I had to bring Erma home. and then I called up Corey and went over to Gregs. I think I had the best smoking pot experience yet. We drove around then went back to Gregs. the guys played Halo..it reminded me of college *lol. then Kosta came over and we went out to my car again. then we went downstairs and the guys jammed out on their guitars. OMG it was so awesome. I think i was tripping out real bad, but I loved it. The guys are so good...and everything about it was just amazing. I could've sat there all night just listening to them. I brought Corey home. then i went home and slept soooo good.
Saturday i woke up really pissy. i'm not sure why. i think i was expecting to sleep longer than i did but it wasnt working out. Well the fam. couldnt decide what to do for the day and i wasnt sure if i wanted to go back or stay in Muskegon. and they seriously are no help because all they do is encourage me to stay and it just sucks. but Saturday was actually my moms birthday and i felt bad leaving on that day. so we decided on getting some lunch at Famous Daves then we went to the mall. OMG! i will never ever ever in my life do that ever again. for one; I cant handle the mall on a Saturday afternoon. everyone and their brother, sister and mother are there. its crazy and busy and so overwhelming. and for two; shopping w/ your dad is beyond frusterating! he looks at EVERYTHING and for an hour at a time. I swear picking out one damn golf club did not need to take 3 hours, but saturday it did. and I have no money..my family has no money.. so its pointless to even be at the mall. But Bill buys a golf club..w/ what money? oh wait..my college money! whatever. i get in a fight w/ my mom over shoes. and we leave the mall. thank the lord! Then later that night after cooling down a bit. my dad well.. pretty much guilt trips me into going to a family movie. we saw Friday Night Lights. well the only thing good about that movie is when they played the Refused for one of the football game scenes. other that that it was pretty lame. after the movie i was FREE and got to go to Birrs. I paid for my cup and I was ready. Talked w/ Meg a lot. Went for a cruise w/ Reece Isaac and Meg. I'm so proud of her!! Came back, drank alittle more. Bianca fell in a drain and it was the funniest thing. i couldnt help but laugh at Jared. he kills me. he's good times. eh, it got late and i was so tired. followed Jared back to his house and got my CD. then i went home and peed in my driveway. it sucked. i almost peed my pants. i didnt think i'd make it and i was seriously thinking about just pissing my pants and cleaning it up in the morning. Beer pee is just all water anyways. but luckily i made it to the drive way before too much made in the car. and slept really good.
Yesterday wasnt much of anything. Went to church. had some type of convention thing in the gym afterwards. I pretty much just stood and talked w/ Carmen. That girl cracks me up. All of her stories are so good. We see eye to eye on certain things and its just really funny to me. After church we went to eat at Taco Bell in N. Muskegon. We looked at some really nice house on Ann St. I'm sure we wont move, but my mom just likes to look. Then I came back, napped alittle. ran some errands. Got a shirt for my costume. then came back home and watched like 3 movies. I watched Signs. I really didnt remember that movie being all that scary before. But i was really freaked out when i watched it this time. Then I went out and got pop and ice cream for the fam. came back and went to bed. I really dont wanna stay another Sunday night. I need to be at college!!
( You're, you're addicted to the drug of lust )
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So back at school again. I shouldnt do long weekends anymore. It always kicks my ass. At first when I come home, I miss Western, but then when I come back to school, I miss Muskegon. And I had to get up so early today to ride back. I was late for my class, but atleast I went. I want to go to all my classes this week. I havent done that in a long time and it needs to be done. Well last night I finally had the financial talk w/ my dad. And I broke the bad news that I only have $330 left in my account. And he took it rather well, and rather well as in I mean he didnt smack me in the face, like I was expecting. But I guess he wants to take all my money and put it towards tuition and only leave me $20. I'm not sure how thats gonna work out but I guess I have to do it since I blew $5700 on god knows what. I'm such a jackass.
Overall I had a pretty good weekend. Thursday I got home, went tanning and then went out to eat w/ the fam. Then me and Nicole went and returned cans, and rented movies. It was just like hanging out in college except we could drive ourselves places. Friday I woke up and went and brought Bill lunch. Hung out w/ him for alittle. Got to see Bianca and all the kiddies! Left there and went tanning and watched a movie. Then went out to eat at the Station. Left there and went to Biancas. then to Reeks. then to Courts. made a run w/ Reece. Hung out in the garage like old times. Went on the tramp, and it kicked my ass like always. then just went home. and slept really well.
Saturday. woke up. got G&L for lunch then went over to Biancas to watch movies. Went to BP w/ Birr. They raised the prices on fountain soda. such a disappointment. Came back. Picked up Reece and Isaac and headed back over to Biancas. Went home for dinner and had Beef Stew and it was damn good. Then we we're supposed to have a reunion and all smoke down again. But Reece was a no show. So we replaced him w/ Reeker. Jesus... I have never smoked that much in my life. But it was so good hanging out w/ Isaac! Then we went to Biancas. then made a run. then back to Biancas for movies. Smoked again w/ a few of the guys. later in the night. left and went to Jamies and then me and Isaac hung out w/ Ben J. for a bit. that kid is crazy but so funny! god I was so thankful to go home that night and sleep. I slept super well.
Sunday=no church! me and Bill met up w/ my parents at Famous Daves. It was good. Saw Abbey for a few. then went to the mall w/ the whole family. I'll never do that again. It takes forever to get anything done. then we went to Best Buy and spent like 433493840 hours here. Finally we left. I came home and had to run a few errands. I wanted to see a few people before I left, but that didnt work out. Finally we got shitty pizza. Had the talk. and I went to bed.
My mom made so much good food! But I'm gonna nap. and then no English class today. I'm gonna miss my English boyfriend :( well time for peace offering and naparoo! <3
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